Over the next too weeks Jon tried everything to get her to talk again but nothing was working she kept shrugging it off no matter how hard it was get her too look at him again he always thought he would win her over but he couldn't hunching down on the hill bank over looking the ocean Jon tried to make sense of what happened she was making a deal out of nothing they nearly kissed but it never got that far she freaked out and ran to her room. he squinted his eyes a little as he looked out trying to put something together what to say to her because weather or not she liked it they were going to sit down and talk about it she worked for him they lived under the same roof they were supposed to be friends they had to talk at some point. Making his way back home it started getting dark the sun had all ready started to go down and the light grew fader, Standing at the gate to his home he looked at the window there she was at the desk by the window. Her face was lit up with the lights from the out side shining on the window she must have been sitting doing the paper work because she never uses that room other wise. Almost sure she had done it this morning he crept in the back through the kitchen and slowly sneaked in the door to the office luckily the door was open. Star was sitting with her head over the desk playing with the pen she never noticed Jon walk in.
Thinking about what to write to her sister star felt the tears running down her face, she loved her and missed her she had felt so bad about not calling her the last few days after promising that she would she felt mean and hoped that her sister would forgive her after everything they had both been through she felt like she had let her down she never wanted to leave her but of course her little sister insisted on it. At the age of 11 her little sister and her were in a accident she was driving home after picking her up from a friends house it was late and the rain was coming down heavy and it was hard to see out with her child in the back crying and her little sister on the passenger seat telling her all about her day and what happened the night before at the sleep over. She was to busy involved up in her little sisters night she didnt pay any attention to large truck that was serving out of control coming in the other direction, till it was too late. Her car was over turned and flung down the side of the mountain and she had been knocked out cold. Thinking about the day only made her even more upset and miss her sister more. Now seven years on her sister had not long turned 18 it was just after that that she had to leave her she didnt want to but it only upset her sister because she wanted her to go out and live her life she was all ways that way sure she loved her sister round her but she thought she was being a burden by keeping her at her side.
It was going to be Stars 29th birthday soon and the only thing she wanted was her sister to be with her. Every Year she spent time out with her sister doing stuff they both loved doing Paige wasnt just her sister she was her best friend they never argued and if they ever did it was only playfully they had a strong friendship and thats why when that night happened and they thought they couldnt save her at the hospital Star was willing there and then to take her own life feeling the tears run down her face she still had no idea that Jon was stood behind her. Getting up she picked up the phone and her pen and paper and turned round, Seeing Jon come out of the shadows by the door she jumped dropping everything all over the place.
"Bloody hell dont you know its rude to sneak up on people like that?" she snapped not meaning too.
"Hey im sorry i ..." Stopping himself he noticed how upset she was and walked over to her. Putting the pad, pen and phone down on the table he hugged her.
"You look like you could use someone to talk to honey" he whispered. "Come on ill put the kettle on" he offered gently walking with her into the living room Jon sat her down then quickly made his way into the kitchen to make them both a coffee.
Curling up on the seat the tears still fell from her eyes rubbing them she made them sore and irritated but she didnt care she just wanted her sister, she might have forgiven her but she could never forgive herself. Coming back through he sat her up and put an arm round her after placing the cups on the fireplace.
"Do you want to talk about it" He asked her taking her hand in his comforting her.
"No not really" Star replied keeping her head down not looking at him.
"You need to talk to someone your hurting real bad" Jon pointed out "I have noticed it today as soon as you got up all the way till i went out i come back and your in floods of tears, come on Star I'm your friend i want to help you" he insisted refusing to back down this time.
"Its a long story" she sighed sitting back.
"I have all night and the rest of my time with you actually cross that i have forever, i will always be here for you were friends after all right?" he smiled warmly at her.
Listening to what had happened to them both that night Jon tightened his grip round her not enough to hurt though.
"I thought i would have to have two funereal's my poor baby and my sisters i managed to get out but i couldnt see my sister the car was leaking you could smell it i was covered in blood i was panicking i didnt know what to do, lucky for me there was a car passing by the man was kind enough to help out but the the time he got down the car went up not giving up the man risked his own life to get my sister out before it really was too late and just as she was pulled to safety the whole thing blew sky high i thought she was dead or not far from it she was hardly bleeding and her leg had been crushed badly. she had been burnt and her leg was so badly torn and crushed she had to lose it because of me because of my fucking behaviour i almost cost my sister her life and my little boy died" she cried. Taking her in his arms he held her close trying to comfort her. Getting herself in such a bad state she never drank her coffee instead she curled against Jon and cried herself to sleep.
Laying her down on the sofa Jon covered her with his jacket walking into the study he found the bit of paper which read Paige and a number under it. Picking it up he tiptoed into his room taking the phone with him and called the number on the paper.
Thinking about what to write to her sister star felt the tears running down her face, she loved her and missed her she had felt so bad about not calling her the last few days after promising that she would she felt mean and hoped that her sister would forgive her after everything they had both been through she felt like she had let her down she never wanted to leave her but of course her little sister insisted on it. At the age of 11 her little sister and her were in a accident she was driving home after picking her up from a friends house it was late and the rain was coming down heavy and it was hard to see out with her child in the back crying and her little sister on the passenger seat telling her all about her day and what happened the night before at the sleep over. She was to busy involved up in her little sisters night she didnt pay any attention to large truck that was serving out of control coming in the other direction, till it was too late. Her car was over turned and flung down the side of the mountain and she had been knocked out cold. Thinking about the day only made her even more upset and miss her sister more. Now seven years on her sister had not long turned 18 it was just after that that she had to leave her she didnt want to but it only upset her sister because she wanted her to go out and live her life she was all ways that way sure she loved her sister round her but she thought she was being a burden by keeping her at her side.
It was going to be Stars 29th birthday soon and the only thing she wanted was her sister to be with her. Every Year she spent time out with her sister doing stuff they both loved doing Paige wasnt just her sister she was her best friend they never argued and if they ever did it was only playfully they had a strong friendship and thats why when that night happened and they thought they couldnt save her at the hospital Star was willing there and then to take her own life feeling the tears run down her face she still had no idea that Jon was stood behind her. Getting up she picked up the phone and her pen and paper and turned round, Seeing Jon come out of the shadows by the door she jumped dropping everything all over the place.
"Bloody hell dont you know its rude to sneak up on people like that?" she snapped not meaning too.
"Hey im sorry i ..." Stopping himself he noticed how upset she was and walked over to her. Putting the pad, pen and phone down on the table he hugged her.
"You look like you could use someone to talk to honey" he whispered. "Come on ill put the kettle on" he offered gently walking with her into the living room Jon sat her down then quickly made his way into the kitchen to make them both a coffee.
Curling up on the seat the tears still fell from her eyes rubbing them she made them sore and irritated but she didnt care she just wanted her sister, she might have forgiven her but she could never forgive herself. Coming back through he sat her up and put an arm round her after placing the cups on the fireplace.
"Do you want to talk about it" He asked her taking her hand in his comforting her.
"No not really" Star replied keeping her head down not looking at him.
"You need to talk to someone your hurting real bad" Jon pointed out "I have noticed it today as soon as you got up all the way till i went out i come back and your in floods of tears, come on Star I'm your friend i want to help you" he insisted refusing to back down this time.
"Its a long story" she sighed sitting back.
"I have all night and the rest of my time with you actually cross that i have forever, i will always be here for you were friends after all right?" he smiled warmly at her.
Listening to what had happened to them both that night Jon tightened his grip round her not enough to hurt though.
"I thought i would have to have two funereal's my poor baby and my sisters i managed to get out but i couldnt see my sister the car was leaking you could smell it i was covered in blood i was panicking i didnt know what to do, lucky for me there was a car passing by the man was kind enough to help out but the the time he got down the car went up not giving up the man risked his own life to get my sister out before it really was too late and just as she was pulled to safety the whole thing blew sky high i thought she was dead or not far from it she was hardly bleeding and her leg had been crushed badly. she had been burnt and her leg was so badly torn and crushed she had to lose it because of me because of my fucking behaviour i almost cost my sister her life and my little boy died" she cried. Taking her in his arms he held her close trying to comfort her. Getting herself in such a bad state she never drank her coffee instead she curled against Jon and cried herself to sleep.
Laying her down on the sofa Jon covered her with his jacket walking into the study he found the bit of paper which read Paige and a number under it. Picking it up he tiptoed into his room taking the phone with him and called the number on the paper.
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